Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Learn to Forgive

I have been going through hardship last few days.
I'm having final exam at the moment, i lost someone who used to be important in my life, and other issues which make it even harder for me.

At that time, i couldn't concentrate on my study, i have to read 1 sentence for about 5 times.
Obviously i wasn't doing well on that exam, i can't even tell whether the exam was hard or it's me who don't have the idea of how to do it.

That someone that i trust, that i care for is actually not the one that i thought. I found out that all this time was just a drama, which looks beautiful, which i thought was real but actually not.
The ugly truth revealed by itself.
That was a huge impact for me, i don't know anything before, i don't even suspect and it even never cross my mind that something like that will happen, everything suddenly came to me, it came like a flood, i was struggling to find a dry place, a safe spot, at least a place for me to rest myself.
More and more truths revealed, i grew bitter, i felt hurt, i felt sad but at the same time a part of me wish that this was not real, i wish it was just a nightmare!

But then God makes me realized how good He is to me.
He lets me know the truth, He ends everything here so that it won't go further.
I started to thank Him, i know He is teaching me to be discipline through this.
I thank Him, but the bitter towards that person was still there.

God then reminded me of this verse:

Love is patient and kind, never jealous, boastful, proud, or rude.
Love isn't selfish or quick tempered.
It doesn't keep a record of wrongs that others do.
Love rejoices in the truth, but not in evil.
Love is always supportive, loyal, hopeful, and trusting.
Love never fail!

I was overwhelmed, i can feel the peace! Every hate every bitterness , all gone in just a second.
I don't know how to describe this feeling, it feel so good.
Praise Him, how great is our God!

I can feel myself forgiving that person.
And believe or not, i even sent a bible verse to that person. It's Hebrews 12:1-13. At that time i suddenly felt the urge to send this verse to that person, and i just sent it the next second.

Our God is amazing!
I feel so blessed of knowing Him, He changed the way i think, the way i feel, the way i see things, everything!
All this things happened for my own good.

I really thank God!!
Indeed His loves never fail!

Keep growing in Him and glorify his name :)
Jesus loves us ALL.

Sunday, October 28, 2012

The Butterfly is flying away

We once share laughter together

We once share happiness together

We once completed each other

But once the truth revealed

All left are memories

There's no regret, only thankful to God

For waking me up

Good by butterfly

Friday, October 26, 2012

The old me, where have you gone?

Lately I..

Haven't been baking
Haven't been taking photos
Haven't been watching drama
Haven't been socialize
Haven't been eating healthy
Haven't been focusing on my future
Haven't been..

It seems like the quality of my life is deteriorating instead of improving..

Where is the old me?

I'm finding a way back..